Liberty

Looks like my whole life has been centered around the UK system of education. The Malaysian school system is a mimicry of it, then A-Levels, and now a UK university that has only one final exam at the end of each year. Seems like it's been a long string of make-or-break exams. The entire school year leads up to it, then finally the incredible feeling of liberation when the examiner says "Thank you for waiting" after collecting your final paper.

The past two post-exam days have been spent just soaking in London's sun and food and shops. It was warm enough this weekend to actually wear a skirt -- though some people have been doing that but I need to make sure it's really warm before I do! Finally my legs get to see the sun after 9 months.

It was "A Taste of Spain" day today at Regent Street, so they closed it off to traffic. I now have a large poster of Mallorca and a straw hat that says 'Espana'. Well the n should have the tilde on top but I'm too lazy to look for it in Character Maps. It was really funny how there was a huge scrum for the straw hats. The poor man giving them out must have been so harassed. One man on the sidelines was going "Take it easy people! IT'S JUST A STRAW HAT!"

Ah, humans. When it comes to free stuff we all become savages.

Sorry I have no pictures except for this giant paella:


There were two -- which they were dishing out for free. The line was too incredibly long though.

Not being selfish is hard.

ONE MORE TO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Okay, okay, calm down... I still have to study.

Tightrope

There is always this delicate balance to maintain.

Cool logic / Raw emotion.

Reason / Passion.

Experience / Intuition.

One without the other, and we are either robots or fools.

The three evils are Greed, Hatred and Delusion.

Please let me be free from that which clouds my vision.

Aneka pilihan

Yang manakah benar?*

I. It's not over yet
II. It's so over
III. I'm not over it
IV. I'm over you

A. I sahaja
B. II dan IV sahaja
C. I dan III sahaja
D. I, II, III dan IV

*Di mana "it" merujuk kepada sesuatu perkara yang tidak semestinya serupa.
*Di mana "over" boleh ditafsir sesuka hati.

I am extremely, extremely tired. Swollen eyes, sore head, stuffed nose. It drains me. Now that I think about it, I think I am slowly isolating the factors that led to this. Guess sometimes you can have wounds that you didn't even realise were there, that never had space to heal, that were just festering all this time. They don't disappear very easily.

Illusion and reality

Is it just an abstract, vague concept conjured up and glorified by movies, TV and books?

A dream, an illusion for us to chase and idealise. An idea, so that we tell ourselves that this is true, instead of knowing it to be so.

Or is it powerful and strong, a force that supports us, the one thing our souls and minds and bodies would die without, the only thing that is truly real?

Still running..

In an attempt to purge this blog of pop-ups, I am taking out the chatbox.
Maybe it was the plurk widget that I put up.

Exams are still not over... they haven't even begun!
I can't believe I've been studying for nearly the past two months... Attempting to, anyway.

Nom nom nom

French toast.

French fries.

Fruit tea. (refillable)

Yin yong.

Snow mountain.

Mango lo.

Kiwi lo.

"Ham chin band".

Ipoh white coffee.

Roti bakar.

Lo bak kor.

Or chien.

Uncle Bob's.

Fried mushrooms.

Ikan bakar.

Maggi goreng tambah pedas.

Mango special.

Roti Hawaii.

Ribena lychee.

Garlic cheese naan with condensed milk.

Roti pisang.

The ultimate limau ais.

:(

-_-

Okay I super cannot figure out why I get pop-ups when I open my blog.

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I was slightly surprised. Though I really shouldn't have been.

All the fluff was never needed, it was simple. It was always refreshing--straight as an arrow. Because of that I guess I could see where your head was at. I thought I did the best I could. I was honest, at least. Or maybe I was wrong?

I thought it might end up like this but I was so hoping it wouldn't. I was hoping it wouldn't go down that path trod so often before. The wall that I thought had been broken through was up again, reinforced. And there were no chinks. I knew things would be different, but I hoped it wouldn't change the fundamentals. But I guess the core was weaker than I thought. Everything changes.

Be oblivious, and forge your path.