Blurbs

This is probably a common thread with a lot of people but after using Twitter and Plurk so much I find myself thinking in 140 characters or less. It's hard to write a proper post. My last couple of posts attest to this.

Finally a new phase has begun. This time period will be my longest away from home. This summer is challenging me in so many ways--some that I didn't expect it to. The obvious ways I did expect -- the pressure, the intensity, etc. But as for the other stuff... well, I was less than prepared for it. It's okay though, I'll be all right. Just have to do the best I can and take care of myself. The rest is out of my hands.

I am happy, I am!

I just hate these hours in between!

Enough is enough.

It's time for me to find my own peace.

Acceptance.

Somehow I feel like this summer I have to almost grow up for real. (The real growing up for real will be when I move out of my parents' home.) The reality that I'm not going home for yet another three months is starting to sink in. In these three months I will be under intense pressure to perform, succeed and shine--whether the stronger pressure comes from the external source or the internal source I can't say. I'm working on the whole not-being-excessively-harsh-on-myself thing, though. I say three months although formally it's ten weeks, because it starts now. My two days of full-on post-exam holiday extravaganza is over. Two days doesn't sound like a lot to compensate for two months, does it? But that's why I say I feel like I have to almost grow up. The days of long hard work being compensated by long holidays--that's gone.

Back to the studying. This kind of studying is different though, at least it's interactive. I'm actually glad to learn all this stuff. Maybe it's just my inner nerd rejoicing. At the same time I have to deal with this tooth that is really starting to hurt! Well, life isn't linear. You can't always solve one problem then move on to the next one, can you. You're forced to deal with them all simultaneously. Also I have to think about moving and packing all my stuff. Narrowing my life down into a reasonable amount of bags and boxes. I have a huge issue with hoarding, I'm a natural hoarder but I'm working on it. I managed to bin most of my notes already. Now to work on whittling down my clothes.